A letter from 'Crushed Sakura'...

Received a letter this morning from a reader calling herself 'Crushed Sakura'.
A story in need to be shared...

Dear Hubby,

Tried so very hard not to call you the name that only I used to call because you let the other person to call you the same way I do...I am CRUSHED...

One after another, then another and another...you did not give yourself a chance to undo your wrong doings...I am CRUSHED again...and again and again and again...

I guess the only thing  I know about our lives together is trying to heal my CRUSHED heart. Its ok...because...I have Allah..

When I first convinced my heart you were the right man to fall in love with,...I observed you. Your respect to your mother and loves her truly were the only thing I need to see. And so I know you will surely give your respect to me if I were your wife...but was I in  the wrong when I don't feel that respect anymore..??

Or maybe you have changed...

I pity you. I pity you because you take pride in having two types of women in your life:-

 a) A halal wife that you treat as a maid: to take care of your house and kids...and patiently waiting for you to come back home.

 b) A harem mistress that you hid so well and lavishly having fun.

I am sorry readers that I have to convince the author of this blog to take the photo of the mindless mistress down-

But, I am so happy now that I have allowed myself to block you and that pathethic woman from hurting me. I have Allah to take revenge on my behalf and so I shall just wait and see what shall become...

 How pathetic must you feel if all of your family and friends knew about this. Should they see the proof that I have in hand. Should your mother know of this, she must have thought she has failed in some way. I am sure she too will be CRUSHED . But of course you need not worry  because so long as you have the above a)...she will probably do what she did best...protecting your reputation...that is why I understand why you did it. Me and the kids are only your cover up. You don't love us. You love only yourself.

You fooled the a) into mantaining the so called perfect 'marriage'...and you also fooled the b) into thinking she is ....DIFFERENT... ;)...I really felt for her...have you told her that she is the 1, 2 , 3 , 4th 'different' lady in your life?....she must have been very proud as I am sure for every women who are able to lured a married man into her embrace felt that she had won a trophy...well I don't care what will happen to her for I know what goes around comes around...
But you dear hubby...you have got the best of both worlds...Congratulations to you on your effort.

Astaghafirullahalazim...
If you have Allah in your heart right now please come back to Him. I do not have the power to bring you back because I am human too. I am imperfect. I have flaws that you tediously search to give your every 'good' reason to do the things you are doing/ have done to me.
I pity your mistress too because you have so many times told me she is worthless without her knowing and yet you let her became the thorn in our lives... Or is it just maybe...just maybe...you just love pathetic and worthless women.

I am not mad at you...because I know you are being tested by Allah...but if you continue to act as if you didn't do anything wrong...you are indeed a shameless man.

I have tried so many things to improve our lives together with our beautiful children...and all these were CRUSHED. Nope...I have allowed you to crush me and the kids along.
Hubby dearie...if you have not come to your senses...I am afraid I cannot make you come to your senses....
Bertaubat lah sayang...I pray the day of your full repent to Allah and I shall wait patiently. YES! You are the authority of our family live as you are my husband but please don't forget that there is a higher authorizer than you and that is the Syariah of Islam....until the day that you realize 'she' doesn't love you....she only loves the idea of being with you.

loves,

Wifey

Dear readers,

I really do not know how to say this anymore...but as a woman...
If I was a)...I just need to be strong for the children's sake and ask Allah what is the best way...and, just follow His guidance....
if I was b)...I would see a psychiatric and check myself. I think I have a problem. A definite short circuit somewhere in me head. I definitely need help.

The worse thing that can happen to a person called woman is when you think the porridge in other person's bowl is tastier than the one in yours. Chill...you may think you have the BEST assets of all time...
but think again....coz the best asset is a good heart. Surely a good hearted woman will never become b).
Well Crushed Sakura's husband is right about one thing though....b) is not worth it...AT ALL...
wasting his time and money on her....

Wallahualam...